Being sick and lying in bed also allows me to do some thinking. I suddenly realise that I don't have a lot of friends that I can call 'real', though I suppose that it's better than worrying if one of your 'friends' will backstab you in the back. With friends like that, who needs enemies?

But even though I said that I don't care to everyone out there that my colleagues isolated me from their affairs and talks, deep down, I know. I know that I yearned to be part of their group and to talk and laugh with everyone else. I know that I'm lonely. But I just don't want to admit it.

I've found some pictures on the net today when I was surfing for anime pics as I'm feeling bored. It really takes me back to my secondary school days when I'm in school with Hong Chuan and the rest. Laughing and talking with everyone else about anything under the sun. Where had those days gone and when had we driven apart so far? Just one more time, I just want to go back to where those golden years had been for us - just laughing and talking without a care in the world.

I'm tired. Really I am.

::light in darkness::